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Thursday, May 6, 2010

I Love You

"Those three word, are said too much they're not enough"
- Chasing Cars, Snow Patrol -

Simple but can make one shed tears ~ especially ME!
(or am I too sensitive? ~sighs~)

May and June are the most waited months, every year. I get to celebrate my birthday and Mother's Day with my mum... And in June, I got to celebrate Father's Day together with my brother's birthday. But dunno why I'm shedding tears while writing this. Maybe I seldom say those three words to my mum or dad. Every time I wanna say them to her, my eyes turn red. And of course I don't want her see me like that. SO, I just paused, long exhale and turn to her and kissed her cheek, say anything other than those three words. Same case with my dad. YUP, I'll say :

1. Take care, I'm going now..
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2. I'm off to school now, bye.

Tears keep rolling down my cheek now. Its so hard for me to say those three words, cause I know, she love me even more. The same thing with my dad. I remembered that one time when he was admitted to the hospital, I couldn't stand seeing him on the bed. I'm the softest or I'm the most sensitive? ~sigh~

I do hope one day, I'm strong enough to say the three words to my parents, not to shed tears, but with joy and the same LOVE. And show to them, how much I love them while I'm still around.

Mummy, Daddy, I LOVE you.

_-_-_Dearest Daughter_-_-_

Monday, April 26, 2010

Was it me?

Or was it just my 6th sense. My mind is occupied with things that are not so important right now. I should have start revising for my traffic paper this coming Thursday, but this thing keep bugging me. Its my project report ~oh yeah. I guess I couldn't concentrate because I was keep thinking bout it. There are something else as well, but its too private to talk here (haha). By the way, I didn't have enough sleep last night. I was busy finishing my report. It ended up I have to submit it tomorrow. I better start working on it now, but my eyes doesn't seems to agree with me. Haiya.. I hope to finish it tonite.

Hmm...

I can see stars in my eyes..

sleepy me

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Passion of the Christ- In Christ Alone

I wanna share this song to all Christians out there. This song and video is very touching. Very deep and it touches me deep down in my heart. I would listen to this song all day. LOL. Reminder that I'm saved because He died and rose again for me. Thank you Lord. Credits to the composer and singer, Keith Getty and New Irish Hymns.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

E.X.A.M

I'm very occupied this weeks. I have my project report to submit next Monday, I have Traffic paper on Thursday (~sighs~). So many things to do, so little time. I guess I deserve this. I've been fooling around throughout the semester. (>u<) hehe... I wont write too much for now. I have pics to show (Aha! Finally some pics!)
Thats me! Bored reading huh?

What u looking at?

These are my friends who joined me for a week at the library doing assignments
(see the table is cover with books!)

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Outing is Over..

The outing is over, but the photos are not ready yet. Lots of laughters and happy moments...

The event start around 3pm, where we were supposed to gather at the bowling center for a mini tournament among ourselves. Unfortunately, we the girls arrived a little late (two late because got home agendas, while me and Wawa was busy make-up ourselves-LOLZ)

When we arrived, the boys have finished a round, and continued with a round of pool game. After a little this and that, hihihaha, we continued for another round of bowling, this time two groups formed of four. The winning team gets to decide the place to eat later. It was fun although my team didn't win the round, but we get to eat to the place we want (Hartz Chicken) as the some members can't take seafood if we go for steamboat.

Next agenda was food... Before that, we stopped by at The Spring to see if there's any interesting movie to watch later. So sad... None was within our schedule.. All late movies and we don't wanna pass our curfew.

From the Spring, we convoyed to Hartz Chicken at Sarawak Plaza. I can't wait to stuff my empty stomach. It was already 745pm, no wonder I was so hungry... I took small portion of each dishes served on the counter. All you can eat.. Thats why I'm taking little portions, try all then choose the best taste for the next round. I got myself candied yam, sumtin2 chicken, macaroni, potato chips, some roasted chicken, and some colorful gravy for everything on the plate. All look yummy to me...

Second round was from the salad bar, with fruits and some ice-cream. I'm stuffed till I wanna barf. (>.<) There's also pics of the food.. (I'm still waiting for my softcopy from my friend).

After the food event, we went for slow walk along the Kuching Waterfront. People was lazing at the cafe along the waterfront. Took some pics again, then went home. When I got back, it was already 11 pm.. It was tiring, but fun as long as I'm surrounded bestest buddies... (>.<)

Thanks guys for making the day the best outing with bowling ever for me. HEHE...

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Can't wait

Tomorrow I'm going out with my girlfriends and some guys for our club outing... I can't wait coz this is my first time going out with my classmates, hanging out just jolly around and not worry anything.

Wait for next post of pics tomorrow k?

Lost and found

Friends are never lost. We always thought that we lost one. But never realize that, with one lost, we gain so much. Why cry over those who don't appreciate things we have done? We should only cry for family lost.. (I have an image of war refugees in mind)

I lost several friends through fights. I'll never quit, and so are they. Over years, I learned that, there's no point to wait for that victory, as both parties will never give up. But one thing for sure, when one party is gone for REAL, like dead, the other winning party will feel the lost, as if there's no point to fight in the first place. Hmm... But we do fight right? coz we love it.. I quote this, "Argument or fight is the spice of life".. LOL.. Even Husband and wife fight..

The lost is never ending, but sure there will be something found. We found joy in the found (and sometimes in the lost)

"The Parable of the Prodigal Son
11And he said, “There was a man who had two sons. 12And the younger of them said to his father, ‘Father, give me the share of property that is coming to me.’ And he divided his property between them. 13Not many days later, the younger son gathered all he had and took a journey into a far country, and there he squandered his property in reckless living. 14And when he had spent everything, a severe famine arose in that country, and he began to be in need. 15So he went and hired himself out tob one of the citizens of that country, who sent him into his fields to feed pigs. 16And he was longing to be fed with the pods that the pigs ate, and no one gave him anything.

17“But when he came to himself, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have more than enough bread, but I perish here with hunger! 18I will arise and go to my father, and I will say to him, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you. 19I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Treat me as one of your hired servants.”’ 20And he arose and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion, and ran and embraced him and kissed him. 21And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’c 22But the father said to his servants,d ‘Bring quickly the best robe, and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet. 23And bring the fattened calf and kill it, and let us eat and celebrate. 24For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found.’ And they began to celebrate.

25“Now his older son was in the field, and as he came and drew near to the house, he heard music and dancing. 26And he called one of the servants and asked what these things meant. 27And he said to him, ‘Your brother has come, and your father has killed the fattened calf, because he has received him back safe and sound.’ 28But he was angry and refused to go in. His father came out and entreated him, 29but he answered his father, ‘Look, these many years I have served you, and I never disobeyed your command, yet you never gave me a young goat, that I might celebrate with my friends. 30But when this son of yours came, who has devoured your property with prostitutes, you killed the fattened calf for him!’ 31And he said to him, ‘Son, you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours. 32It was fitting to celebrate and be glad, for this your brother was dead, and is alive; he was lost, and is found.’”

-Taken from the Bible-

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Another Lost

Today someone just told me that I've been a good friend. He told me he will never bother again, nor try to contact me anymore. He said thank you and left me.


He walked a few steps, stopped and returned. He told me why we will never meet again.

"I remembered 21 January (or was it February). I came to tell Batman that he has been a bad friend. How he failed to be around when I needed him. I told him that he is my enemy. "

"That particular week, on the weekend, I started to go to church. My mom doesn't like it though (~sigh~). She scolded me for going to church. I told her that I went to pray."

"Back to my story. When I was at the church, I heard the priest told the people to love one another. To love your enemy. Why do you love your neighbor whom you are good to? Try to love your enemy, and you'll feel what Jesus had gone through during His time of agony."

" The priest said this when I've just claim my friend is my enemy."

"From then on, I've decided to love Batman, just like other people. I gave him a second chance, hoping that he will treat me more like a friend. He treated me differently in some ways. I told myself that I will not sustain until 1 month. So i gave it a shot to see how long I can sustain. Unfortunately, I manage to hold things for 36 days.

I'll continue again tomorrow....

Friday, March 26, 2010

Deaths around me

I guess God is trying to tell me something. Last night, another dream of deaths. But this time a beautiful one. I remembered that it is still related to the current event.

My sister is travelling somewhere, and she went for a group camp. She was reported missing, for days. The search rescue (as if gave up easily) told us that there was no hope to find her. So, there were my family, sitting and praying at the village's chapel. Trying to find hope by constantly praying to God. And there was I, kneeling at the far most of the chapel, next to the door; praying that miracles would happen.

Suddenly, I was crying non stop. Something warm is at the door. A figure that I missed so much. I knew that familiar face. She entered the chapel slowly, just the way she used to move when she was around. And all I can remember was, everyone in the chapel started to cry with me. She came to me and said, "Don't worry, I'm fine". I'm up here with God, and so is your sister. God knew that you were worried and so He sent me to tell you this.

Then I asked, "Why didn't He sent my sister to say goodbye?"

She replied, "You were so angry with Him, and blame Him for what have happened, right? He knew that you missed me more than your sister, so He sent me instead. Your sister is still enjoying her time meeting God. He himself showed us around."

"Be prepared, for you don't know when your time comes", and then she disappeared. Her warmth touch is still felt in my heart. The glow on her face, the smile makes me cry even more.

I woke up, finding myself wet in tears. I missed my grandma.

Friday, February 12, 2010

The NEW iPad is here....

Man... Ever thought that you'll be browsing your pics on your notebook? Well... I thought once, that I'll be able to screen my movie while laying down on my bed with no wires strangling me... No mouse to move my cursor, just touch the screen, and its done. Do my drawings anywhere, without worrying I'll run out of battery soon.


It all answered by Apple, who build this magnificent machine that enable me to do so much, with so less to think of. Just like what the video says, "Why try to adapt, when you can make things to adapt you?" If you've watched the movie"The Avatar", then you'll understand that the future is coming soon. Imagine going to the cinema, watching things while resting on your back. I always suffer from backache after the movie. I've always wanted to watch movie while laying back..

The new iPad is my dream come true. Details of the iPad is available at :

~I'm loving it~

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Very late!!

After the horrible nightmare last night, I finally manage to get some sleep. Guess what..? Another dream (~man!**sigh) But i couldn't recall any details... As I almost get very deep into the dream, something woke me up. It rained outside. Uh-oh... What time is it? 1015am... Gosh... the dream the other night must have carried me restlessly till I didn't realise the time... Again I'm late for everything.

A precious Lost

It has been exactly three weeks since my grandma from my mum's side passed away. She left us on 30 January 2010. Just in time for everyone to come back to see her. Probably she waited for everyone. I wasn't there when she was gone. I got a call from my dad, but i didn't know him calling. My hp was flat. Luckily I was online. Saw my little brother's post on FB saying my grandma is gone. (Sometimes techs can help in a way to help us be informed). May her soul rest in peace.

This morning i dream something horrible. Very horrible that made me couldn't get back to sleep. That's why I'm writing now. It was very soon. The time frame is just around this time , when my grandma from my mum's side is gone. Actually, during the time while waiting for the funeral, I was looking for my other grandma from my dad's side. She was not in town... (~sigh~)

In that dream, I was with someone (I don't remember who she was, but we're like best friends). The scene was very dull, dark and creepy. The next thing I remember in that dream was that, I was looking for my family at home. They weren't home. As if they went back to the village. I took my keys and entered the house. When I went out, I saw the neighbours was like ghost. I screamed my lungs out, and so did my "best friend". We we terrified. We ran towards the car and lock ourselves inside, and sped off somewhere. I remembered my phone was charging at home. I need to get my phone, worried if anyone tried to contact me, especially my mum. So we courageously took a turn back to the house, just to find my little brother at the gate. His eyes were red, looked like he cried a lot. I asked him "why, what happened?"

Hugging me, crying, he said, "Grandma's dead."

I woke up, found myself sweating, almost crying. I prayed that none of that dream happen soon. It was just too soon to lose both of them in a year.

Lesson to take:
Care for those you care while they're still here on earth. Even if you feel they are burdening you. Maybe their time is not long, treasure all those fake smiles they gave, trying to make you feel happy. If there is hatred between you, remember that it won't bring you anywhere.